Until my baby girl turns 1. The only thing that’s making this any easier is that I’ll have another tiny baby in 6 more months. Really that’s not helping that much though. I can’t believe how fast it’s gone by and how much she’s changed and grown. The first year is really amazing!
Over the past week or so I’ve spent some time reading through my blog archives…from this time last year. I’m so glad I have those blog entries to read! It’s made me teary some, it’s made me laugh at myself some. Overall it’s been nice to think back to that time. It’s amazing how blissfully unaware I was of what was to come. I mean, there was no way I could know, but still…it’s interesting to look back on it now that I know what I know.
My entries from the last few weeks of my pregnancy remind me of how tired I was, how uncomfortable I was and how ready I was to meet my baby. I didn’t know then how hard it would be to get her here. I didn’t know that 2 weeks after she was born the colic would start and I didn’t have any idea that it would go on until almost October. I had NO idea that a year later I’d be expecting another baby…if you’d told me that then I would’ve laughed! I would have never thought it was even a possibility.
Most of all I didn’t know how fast that tiny baby would grow up. That she would just now be starting to sleep through the night on her own (3 nights in a row and counting!) and how even just the thought of her sweet little smile would make my day. I wouldn’t trade any of it for the world. I wouldn’t trade a second of the pain it took to get her here…neither the years of infertility nor the 20 hours of labor. I wouldn’t trade the days of colic even though I really thought we’d never make it through that. Because, to me, if just ONE second was different I would be different, Mark would be different, Anna would be different and I wouldn’t want that. Mark and I dealt with a lot and overcame alot to get the happy little almost-one-old baby girl we have today. If she had never been such a difficult, high-maintenance baby I wouldn’t be able to appreciate all the smiles and giggles she gives us now like I do.
I get tired, and I’m scared to death of having 2 babies under 2, BUT being a mom is even better than I thought possible. I just thought I’d share because that’s what’s on my mind today.
In more mommy news…I had my 12 week OB appt. on Monday. This is my last appointment with this doctor…the doctor that ended up delivering Anna. She’s moving out of state and there is no way the other 2 doctors are touching me after the experience I with Anna’s birth. So, I’m changing practices. I may have to deliver this baby in Jackson, which I’d prefer not to do. I’m still waiting to hear for sure if I can get in with another doctor that practices in Martin, but delivers in Union City. Keep your fingers crossed that works out for us! It would be easier for us logistically since we have to make sure someone can keep Anna while Mark is with me during the c-section. Anyway…back to the appointment. Not a whole lot to report really. I gained 2 pounds I think. I had lost 5, so I guess gaining 2 is ok. The 12 week appt is usually when they try to listen to the heartbeat on the doppler for the first time. Of course, I have a rented doppler at home, so I had already heard the heartbeat. The doctor couldn’t find it with the doppler. This baby likes to hide, so it usually takes me awhile to find it. Since it was my last appt with her and the ultrasound technician was off that day, the doctor took me back to do a quick ultrasound. Woohoo! I didn’t get any pictures to take with me since she was really just doing a quick check for the heartbeat. I did get to see the baby moving around though. And it looks like a baby now…albeit a very skinny baby. I got to see a little arm waving at us and the baby did some flip-flops. We did confirm that the baby has a strong little heartbeat and the doctor said he/she was very active. I love ultrasounds…they’re the best. I was kind of bummed that I’ve gotten to see the baby twice now and Mark hasn’t seen the baby at all. Both times the ultrasounds weren’t planned though, so we had no way of knowing. I imagine I’ll get to schedule my “big” ultrasound at my next appointment though…and Mark will definitely be there for that one. Probably Anna too. I think it will end up being towards the end of July or beginning of August.
Ok…I’m at work, so I suppose I should do some work. Even if it is pretty slow right now. I hope everyone is having a great week!
Edited to add…I just found this picture on my computer. I don’t know if I’ve posted it before, but I LOVE it! It was just a quick snapshot while she was sitting in her stroller down by the garden. It’s about a month old, but just look at that sweet, sweet face!
That is the CUTEST picture, can’t wait to see her!
I love Anna pics!