The day before « Life on the farm…

Ah, the flashbacks continue, and I may turn into a weepy mess at any moment. Is this normal or are the pregnancy hormones a contributing factor? Ugh.

Here’s a link to my post from June 16, 2008…just for comparisons sake, and since I’ve been going back and reading these lately…http://smasco.wordpress.com/2008/06/16/well/

About this time last year I was just finishing up at the doctor’s office. I was calling Mark to let him know that later that evening we’d be getting me checked into the hospital so they could start prepping me for induction. Mark was at work at the time and went into overdrive trying to tie up loose ends in preparation for several days off. The only time I had seen him more nervous was on our wedding day, and it was rather adorable. I called my mom and went home to finish packing. I was pretty nervous myself, but really excited and, looking back now, so very blissfully unaware of the hell I was about to enter into during the next 12 hours (by that I mean labor…not motherhood itself). If I had known I would’ve taken a very long nap. I had gotten up around 7am that day (the 16th). I wouldn’t really sleep again until about 4:15pm on the 17th…

At the time I wasn’t thinking about c-sections or the pain of contractions…I was focused on a sweet baby girl in my arms. My mind knew there would be pain involved followed by many sleepless nights, but none of that really registers when you’re 9 months pregnant and ready to meet your baby…and that’s probably a good thing.

I can’t believe it’s been a year since that day and tomorrow will be a year since Anna was (finally) born. It’s weird to sit here at my desk at work, looking at the pictures on my desk, which are mostly of Anna, and think of that last day of my pregnancy with her. The changes in her are incredible, of course. It’s unbelievable how much a baby changes in their first year of life. The changes in me are incredible too. They weren’t kidding when they said having a baby will change everything. I don’t think there is an aspect of my life that has been left untouched…and there really is nothing better than being Anna’s mommy…I mean, look at that face!